I feel skinny today.

Ugh I did NOT want to get up and a) workout this morning or b) go to work. I still stick to my original statement that ill vote this Tuesday for the president who is going to give us 3 day weekends haha.

I've been having the problem of eating amazing during the week but then when it comes to the weekend it's like hey, lets eat carbs! This weekend we were running errands and it was freezing so obviously we went to Panera to get some soup and of course because I'm an idiot I didn't just get the soup I got it in the bread bowl and that came with the top of the bread bowl and then a side of bread! Talk about cheating. Jesus. But for some reason I just couldn't resist that bread. Ugh. And I know if Brian reads this he's going to kick my ass because he told me not to have diary or gluten, but I'm trying... I really am - I'm good during the week honestly, but then it's just so hard on the weekend - i need to be more disciplined. Im working on it I promise.... I mean COME ON ANDREA.

Anyways one more weird thing, I really hate jumping jacks. I mean really. Talk about the exercise where your shits flying all over. I mean seriously. Any they make jumping jacks so your not jumping up and down flailing your arms around while your tummy rolls shake like their in an earthquake. I mean come on! And then on top of that to see yourself in the mirror having that happen?!?! Ugh I'd rather be dead!


I feel like today is just a bunch of random thoughts from my scattered brain... and then of course, I will post something of some sort of use at the end, but for now, I'm just rambling.

So, back to the title of my post... I feel skinny today... I feel like I've got some swagger in my step today... i think mostly it's because I went to old navy this weekend and fit into clothes I never thought I could fit into... So I decided to wear them to work today, and damn do I just feel good about myself. Check me out <-----(also ignore my faces, i really hate taking pics of myself so I don't look normal and yeah, so, the weird thing is, if people from work read this, they are totally going to be like, dude that picture is from our work bathroom you are totally taking pics of yourself at work hahaha, yeah, well, it happens sorry!) Anyways, Do you know how good it feels to sometimes feel like WOW, I actually do feel like I'm not 200lbs today! Ahhhh I feel like nothing can stop me today. I feel like I'm seriously conquering this weight loss shit! Like GO ME! I'm feeling GREAT!!!

I need more outfits that make me feel good about myself! I think I've started buying things that fit better and make me feel better about myself, but shit, clothes are expensive and if I'm going to keep dropping lbs' I can't buy new clothes every time I drop a pant size. I'm going to have to figure that one out.

One more random thought for the day.....

You know when you lay down totally flat on your back and you put your hands on your sides and you feel super skinny? I want to be that thin when I'm standing up! When I do that, I just feel so little and i feel like the world is my oyster, and I totally TOTALLY take a second to dream about what I would be wearing or doing when I get thinner, and then I wake up, stand up, and realize, I was just laying down, and my size goes back to the way it was. Stupid skinny laying down!

OH the gym, omg the GYM I praise and LOVE made a commercial, and they released it today --- This is why I love it so much, I mean just watching the commercial makes you want to get your ass to the gym and get in GEAR! THIS IS WHY I WORK OUT AT RAISE THE BAR. Just look at the commercial and you will see how intense it is and how MUCH I LOVE IT! My amazing trainers are in it, some of my friends are in it - I Love it. Just watch it. And then come to a class with me! :)




Ok last thing - My most favorite thing in the world in the fall is a PSL from Starbucks, obviously... but damn, those things aren't healthy for you.... This is what Dashing Dish has to say:

Now wait one minute…Before you roll into Starbucks to enjoy one of these popular seasonal drinks, ask yourself if you really want to consume 380 calories 13 grams of fat and 49 grams of sugar in one coffee drink! Save money, (and the calories, fat and sugar) and make this ‘skinny’ version right in the comfort of your own home! I promise you will enjoy it just as much, and you can save yourself $5 bucks and a couple hundred calories! 

SO here is a better alternative from Dashing Dish:

Skinny Pumpkin Spiced Latte
Ingredients:
2 tbs Intant espresso powder (or 2 pkts Starbucks Instant Via Coffee)
1 tsp Pumpkin pie spice
1/2 tsp Cinnamon
1/2 Cup pumpkin puree
1/4 cup Sugar free maple syrup, honey, or agave nectar
2 cups Vanilla almond milk or skim milk
3-5 pkts Stevia (or sweetener to taste)

Optional: 2 tbs half and half (to make it even more rich and creamy) and/or fat free whipped topping for garnish

Method  
THE ESTIMATED TOTAL TIME TO MAKE THIS RECIPE IS 5-10 MINUTES.
1 Add all of the ingredients to a small sauce pan, stir to combine everything, and heat over medium heat, for about 1-3 minutes, or until very hot, (but be careful not to bring to a boil.)

2 Remove from heat and add to a blender to get milk nice and frothy! Blend on high until the milk begins to form small bubbles, about 1-2 minutes.

3 Divide the mixture between two mugs (or save half for later in the fridge). Add a splash of half and half if desired, and/or a squirt of whipped cream, a drizzle of sugar free caramel, and a dash of cinnamon on top! Enjoy!

Nutrition Breakdown
2 Servings
71 Calories per Serving (each serving is 1 1/2 cups)
4 g Fat
13 g Carbohydrate per Serving
3 g FIber per Serving
2 g Sugar per Serving
2 g Protein per Serving

OK ENJOY, LOVE YOU GUYS LOTS!

NO MORE PLUS SIZE CLOTHING EMAILS!!!!!

So, guess what I just did?!?! I UNSUBSCRIBED to, Kiyonna Plus Size, Lane Bryant, ASOS Curve +, because yeah, they have GREAT options for plus sizes, and I have a ton of their stuff, but I DONT FIT INTO IT ANYMORE!!! I can actually fit into a women's size 14-16 bottom, size 14 dress, and finally, well, without any help to my HUGE arms, a XL in AE, Gap, Banana... all those places, XXL even TARGET, XXL was my only hope, but nope, not now, I can actually BUTTON shit from AE, and Target.... ahhh, so happy... I'm on my way...

These are some of the clothes I'm HOPING to be able to fit in by the New Year - thank you Pinterest. HAHA

Day (let's just say 8): To SHOP or not to SHOP that is the question....

Dudes, this is the WORST part about losing weight. What do I do about fall?!?!?! Do I get clothes my size for the upcoming fall? Do I wait, WHAT DO I DO?!

First off - TARGET, you need to make your dresses longer. They are cute, affordable and best of all, I can fit into your dresses, but shit, I'm sure, if my ass hangs out at work one more day, I am going to get fired. Young professionals wear your dresses too, not just teenie boppers, so help me out a little and make that awesome greenish cap sleeve lacy dress that I love so much, a few inches longer!

(this dress in this photo below, excuse my flicking off, I was flicking off my cousin when I took the pic to show her the dress haha, nothing personal against you, world) ((also, it doesn't look that short here because I'm kind of bending over a little and making it longer, but from the back, totally short. rant over)) (((also this dress is super cute without wearing a sweater, but the arms, THE ARMS, you will quickly learn that I hate my arms and I DO NOT show them!)))

Anyways, back to my question. What do I do? Sure, right now, there are only a few stores that I love and have clothes that I can fit into, and they are great. But, do I buy fall clothes on their sites, or wait till I drop some LBs and then get my fall wardrobe? It's really hard... some awesome stores are coming out with some super cute fall stuff... like GAP for instance. They have some awesome stuff right now and of COURSE they keep sending me coupons in my email... don't you KNOW I'm saving for a wedding? Jeez! I want to buy ALL OF THESE!!!! But, yeah, they wouldn't look good on me!!

What should I do? Wait? The other thing is that ASOS - has some super cute plus size clothes.. i could buy some of theirs for the fall till I drop - take a look:

I just don't know... I'm seriously about to buy all these outfits... (well not really because clothes money = wedding money now. HAHAHA)

Super cute, cannot wait to buy any of these!!!!!!

I'm back baby.... No. More. Slacking.

Remember that video I posted saying that I would be blogging again right after the new year? BAHAHAHAHA... about that... Hi, June?!. Oh well, I'm here, and I might be late, but I made it to the party.

Why am I back you say? Well, losing weight is a serious struggle, and as much as I don't care about being over weight, I'm starting to be really down on myself and not liking being in front of the mirror anymore, and not liking being in summer clothes because either my legs are too fat or my freaking horribly chubby arms don't look good in ANYTHING sleeveless... so I figured, yeah, summer's here and I won't lose enough to be happy for summer, but I can start. Maybe I'll be good to go for winter? HAHA... Maybe I'll have dropped enough LB's to not be super fat for my cousin Sarah's wedding in September... you've gotta start somewhere right? 

That being said.... HAHA, I told Juan last night, ok going back on dieting tomorrow, working out, all that jazz... and he's all like "ok, looks like we are going to outback for dinner" HAHA.. of course... steak and potato.. and wings? Clearly I need to not eat like that anymore, but DAMN it's sooo freaking good. Outback does it right. After outback, I went home, packed my work out clothes and set my alarm for 4:45 to start my usual Monday routine (well Tuesday because of the holiday). But shitttttttt, the minute my alarm went off I was like fuck this I'm still sleeping. I don't know what it was, but I had will power last night, but this morning, I was dead to the world. So instead of starting today... looks like I'll be starting tomorrow... I mean minus eating healthy today (wellllllll, also minus the fact that I also caved this morning and had a hash brown at McDonalds... shit dudes, I am NOT off to a good start.) But for real. Lunch, healthy, dinner, healthy, and from here on out, fast food and pizza is NOT in my vocabulary.

I have to also blame Pinterest for my getting back on the wagon. See, thanks to Pinterest, now I have sooo many cute outfits I want, that I clearly won't be able to fit in till I drop the LBs.

I can't wait to buy all this awesome stuff I found. HAHA. SO yeah, thanks Pinterest for having such amazing outfits on there, that it makes me want to lose weight. GOSH! 

Alright, this is enough talking for now, basically, I'm back, I'm going to need the motivation, the texts, the emails, the facebook comments, but time to drop those pesky LBs and be one hot skinny BITCH!

xoxox- 

Large and in Charge.

Fat Kids Clothes.

When you are a size 18 it's really REALLY hard to find cute clothes to wear.... I honestly think I have so many clothes because I get something that I think is going to be cute, and then I wear it once, and I hate it. I just really hate what I look like - if I could look cute in hoodies and sweat pants, I would rock that all DAY every DAY. But I'm a girl, and I can't do that to myself...

Where do I shop then? And what do I look for? Well - take for example, clothes that are baggy --- right now, thank god, at Old Navy big flowy tops are in style.. This is the current outfit I'm rocking: (don't mind my messy room or my sports bra haha)

I love these tops from Old Navy - They are cute and flowy and don't hug my curves: http://oldnavy.gap.com/browse/product.do?cid=72302&vid=1&pid=864259&scid=864259032

and this one -
http://oldnavy.gap.com/browse/product.do?cid=72302&vid=1&pid=885835&scid=885835002 but I'm rocking this in green -

THEN, you will never guess, but my jeans are actually Jeggings from Target HAHAHA - talk about fat kid pants.. but I love them --- they are super comfy and make me feel good about myself :)
http://www.target.com/p/Mossimo-Supply-Co-Juniors-Denim-Jegging-Dark-Wash/-/A-13433543

My friends always ask me why I wear like a million undershirts too - Listen, I know it looks corny, but dude, when you have fat, it jiggles, and the more undershirts, the less jiggle hahaha - i hope one day i will get to the point where I won't need to wear spanx or undershirts, but for now, if I have 5 undershirts on, don't judge, just know I'm trying to reduce the jiggle... HAHA.

Ok, so as for more fat kid clothes - I usually rock anywhere that will sell size 18, xxl, or stretchy things! That means, Old Navy, Target, Gap, Dress Barn, or even Lane Bryant... I feel like Lane caters to older larger people - but sometimes they have some cute stuff -

The biggest problem I have is trying to find high boots that fit over my awesome calf muscles... I mean I was blessed with muscles and I don't feel like I should be punished for that, but unfortunately, going into DSW and trying to find some larger width boots isn't working out --- I usually go again, for stretchy boots like Uggs, but then again, I'm not going to rock Uggs out to a club in NYC.. I want some hot sexy boots that I can fit over my skinny jeans --- SOMEONE HELP!!!!!

I just want to one day, not have to limit myself to shopping in only a few stores.. I want to be able to go ANYWHERE and pick out something --- I cannot wait till I'm at least a size 10 so I can do that... :)

Ok, now I have to go shopping,
FAT KID OUT!

The warning signs....

I think in any disaster scenario there are warning signs... and this my friends (my weight gain) is a serious disaster....

The signs that I should have paid attention to: 

1. My long-arm photos are so high up that I actually don't look fat, I actually look like I have an eating disorder.
2. The only thing I wear during the day are stretchy clothes. Jeans? Forget about it. 
3. Summer is my favorite time of year because I can wear big, high wasted dresses... which ultimately, make me look even bigger than I really am.
4. Back to photos, instead of smiling in photos, I make a kissy face like im 14 because this, my friends, makes your face look skinnier. haha
5. I only shop at Target for clothes because they carry a very large XL
6. Fried food was my best friend 
7. The barista's at Starbucks knew I came in everyday for a "Non-Fat, Venti, Iced Carmel Machiato" non-fat my ass. 
8. When I would fly on the plane, I def took up the whole seat, and felt like a sardine if I had to sit in the middle.
9. When I sat in a booth at a restaurant, I would find myself trying to push the table away from me before everyone sat down so I looked like I "fit better" in the booth. 
10. I drank to look better... meaning, the drunker I got, the less I cared what I looked like.
11. I OWN 20 PAIRS OF LEGGINGS.
12. My entire wardrobe is BLACK.
13. My dogs worked out more than me.
14. And last but not least, I weighed more than Juan. (my biggest discomfort)

Blah - my goal, to not be doing any of these things by the time I am done with this weight loss!